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                                                                     OBSESSED<3

Seriously the best series i have watched in forever, i can't stop watching them. I have gone through 4 seasons in about 3 weeks. My day is not made unless i have watched atleast an episode of this amazing show. I can not WAIT for season 5!

Take it or leave it....

if i could tell you how i was feeling i would. but i cant so im gonna put it down all on paper. and maybe, just MAYBE you'll care enough to LOOK.

I HATE that you leave me in the dust.
I HATE that you will do anything for anyone, but me.
I HATE that i always come last.
I HATE that you dont look at me like you used to.
I HATE that you cant take me out with you.
and I HATE that your not happy.

What about MY happiness. Its sad, i could care less about punctuation in this paragraph or correct speling,
ALL i care about is telling SOMEONE, ANYONE how i feel.

I gave up my LIFE, my FAMILY, my EDUCATION, my FRIENDS... and pretty much everything else.
Its pretty sad how much you can do for someone and still feel not good enough. I look at my friends in Utah and see how happy they are, how wel there boyfriends treat them. Maybe i was never in the books for a relationship like that, or a life as perfect as some of my friends. DO NOT get my wrong i am very blessed, and i am so thankful for what i do have, but sometimes i wish it was my turn for EASY. I have had hard my whole life..ANYONE who knows me knows i havent had it easy. not one part of my life is easy. i wish i had it easy.
I know you dont always get what you want.. but i want my boyfriend to love me back. i want him to want me. and i want my adopted mom to care and i want things to FINALLY go my way. and somehow they always end up in the other persons favor.

im done crying and blabbing about things i cant fix.

This is me, if you dont like it i dont need you in my life.
take it or leave it.

P i c t u r e s

PICTURES SAY MORE THEN WORDS CAN.

<3

sometimmes

I have soo much to sayy..


but not enough words to say it in.

simple

meeeeh

Letss be honest.



Boy's in movies are soo much BETTER

I feel like people spend there WHOLE life's learning what you shouldn't care about, until one day you learn you didn't care enough..


and if you're ANYTHING like i am.. 
You'll find yourself in the position i'm in today.
you'll feel confused and lost, all because someone along the way told you not to care.
Which was wrong of them.


i learned this today.

             If you focus on what you’ve left behind, you will never see what lies ahead.

The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that I was. Lovers dont finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along<3

c h o i c e s

...

                                     
To love is to risk being disappointed,  
let down
broken hearted 
and be vulnerable anyway.
Love & freedom both require risk. It’s not about whether someone else lives up to your expectations, but if you live up to your own. Don’t be attached to people, focus inward on your own experience of love and bring that to every situation. This is how you take your power back! If you do this authentically, everything your Heart desires AND MORE will be yours.

l i f e

                                       It’s not about who you’re attracted to. 
                                     Ultimately, it’s about who you fall in love with.

If only life was this simple<3

This outfit, could it be ANY cuter?(:
OBSESSED! 

things i L O V E

t r u s t

TRUST 
is
EVERYTHING


Without it there is no relationship, nor friendship..
and i'm learning to trust you again..

I love my boyfriend and everything he does for me..
He seriously is my best friend and i'm not quit sure what i would do without him.

We defiantly have our days were we fight and argue,but we always seem to get over everything..
He makes my day. and i'm honestly blessed beyond measures.

. . .

sorryimnotsorry

SOOOOOO




That last post was kinda mean but i couldn't help it..


they are  TWINS!(:

A V A T A R

Tell me he doesnt look like an avatar? HAHAHA

L A C E (:

If you havent been able to tell, I'm a little obsessed with lace, its kinda always been something i loved, but lately im obsessed with it<3

i swear i love kids, simple the biggest blessing in anyones life<3

simply stunning!

                                                           

                                                                      love<3

love

Today was a good day<3 


I love my boyfriend and his Family!
I'm more then blessed to have them in my life!

I wish i could sit here and post pictures with my friends, or post pictures of how much fun i'm having..


but i cant. i have NO friends, and NO life..


but whats new?


you think id be use to this after 2 years.

too much...

I have a TON to think about. 
My life is at stake here, not yours.


Maybe its time i grow up, and realize you don't love me.